IchKannNichtMehr
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I'm sorry
I really don't know what to do..I can't even start how to figure it out. I don't care anymore. I don't freakin' care anymore. I don't I just..I wanna close my eyes. tight. cause this is the thing I know to do the most.. But..who am I to choose that. Who am I to say such a thing.."Death" how comfortable it sounds.. Help, I’ve done it again. I have been here many times before..Hurt myself again.. I, I’m a shamed. And the worst part that there is no one to blame.. Except me. I’m falling.. I don’t know why the hell I’m writing in English but, that what I got right now..I’ve lost everything..and I can’t take it. I wanna be there, tight to the bed, needy..dying.. With out ..without power, without light, without nothing.. And the worst thing is that I actually, truly want IT! Want it like a drug, like oxygen.. I don’t want to be here anymore, I don’t want to get hurt no more, and not hurting people I love. I want to scream, but I have no voice. I want to run, but I don’t have a place to go. I want to live, but something inside of me died. I’m sorry..I just, this is my last place to scream my thoughts out, I’m sorry is I hurt someone by my reckless message..
I really don't know what to do..I can't even start how to figure it out. I don't care anymore. I don't freakin' care anymore. I don't I just..I wanna close my eyes. tight. cause this is the thing I know to do the most.. But..who am I to choose that. Who am I to say such a thing.."Death" how comfortable it sounds.. Help, I’ve done it again. I have been here many times before..Hurt myself again.. I, I’m a shamed. And the worst part that there is no one to blame.. Except me. I’m falling.. I don’t know why the hell I’m writing in English but, that what I got right now..I’ve lost everything..and I can’t take it. I wanna be there, tight to the bed, needy..dying.. With out ..without power, without light, without nothing.. And the worst thing is that I actually, truly want IT! Want it like a drug, like oxygen.. I don’t want to be here anymore, I don’t want to get hurt no more, and not hurting people I love. I want to scream, but I have no voice. I want to run, but I don’t have a place to go. I want to live, but something inside of me died. I’m sorry..I just, this is my last place to scream my thoughts out, I’m sorry is I hurt someone by my reckless message..