I just feel like telling someone…
I’m 17.5 years old, and my name is Kat. I’m sorry for the English, but I don’t have Hebrew fonts on this computer, I can read Hebrew, so feel free to write me back in Hebrew. I have lived in the US, in CA, for a little over 4 months now. Before I moved here I had a boyfriend for a year and a few months, we were planing for him to move here with me. About two and a half weeks before I left Israel we broke-up, it was more like he broke-up with me. He stopped loving me. I got to CA, and I was all alone here, all I had was my mom. About a week after I got here I found a site for Israelis that live abroad, and wrote some stuff there, and a few days later I got a msg there from a 20 year old Israeli guy, that lives in Arizona and is all alone here himself. We started talking a lot via emails, and then ICQ. We became really good friends and finally he came here to meet me… We met, and that same night we kissed and basically decided to be together, but I made it clear to him that I don’t want a long distance relationship. He knew it, and since he was about to finish what he was doing in Arizona in about a month I thought I could handle it. During that month we met a couple of more times, and had a great time. I really loved him and he really loved me. Last week he flew to Israel for about a week to visit his family, I missed him so much, and was really looking forward for him to come back and move here to be with me… On his last night in Israel he disappeared on me, and I was worried sick, when he finally came back home he couldn’t really talk since he needed to catch his fight. He got back to AZ and we talked. He told me that on his last night he kissed another girl, and not only that, that now he isn’t sure where he wants to be, in Israel or here with me. I told him I still wanna see him, that I think I have the right to at least say goodbye in a normal way, so he drove over here. I tried not talking about it and just making our time the best ever, but at some point I just couldn’t any more. We talked and he finally told me that he wants to move back to Israel, that he just hates the US too much.. I really thought that he might decide to stay here with me, but all he does is just say that he is sorry and that he has to think with himself. I love him so much. I know we belong together but I simply don’t know what to do… I know I should give him some time to think, but in the meanwhile I am going crazy here. I gave him a T-shirt of mine to wear a while ago and he gave it back to me today before he left, it even smells like him…. I’m sitting at home crying my eyes out and don’t know what to do… The thing is about him, is that I met him after my last boyfriend broke up with me, and e promised me our relationship will not blow up in my face. I feel like every person I have ever had has left me (not just the two boyfriends, my father and a few other people), and I just feel really sad. kat
I’m 17.5 years old, and my name is Kat. I’m sorry for the English, but I don’t have Hebrew fonts on this computer, I can read Hebrew, so feel free to write me back in Hebrew. I have lived in the US, in CA, for a little over 4 months now. Before I moved here I had a boyfriend for a year and a few months, we were planing for him to move here with me. About two and a half weeks before I left Israel we broke-up, it was more like he broke-up with me. He stopped loving me. I got to CA, and I was all alone here, all I had was my mom. About a week after I got here I found a site for Israelis that live abroad, and wrote some stuff there, and a few days later I got a msg there from a 20 year old Israeli guy, that lives in Arizona and is all alone here himself. We started talking a lot via emails, and then ICQ. We became really good friends and finally he came here to meet me… We met, and that same night we kissed and basically decided to be together, but I made it clear to him that I don’t want a long distance relationship. He knew it, and since he was about to finish what he was doing in Arizona in about a month I thought I could handle it. During that month we met a couple of more times, and had a great time. I really loved him and he really loved me. Last week he flew to Israel for about a week to visit his family, I missed him so much, and was really looking forward for him to come back and move here to be with me… On his last night in Israel he disappeared on me, and I was worried sick, when he finally came back home he couldn’t really talk since he needed to catch his fight. He got back to AZ and we talked. He told me that on his last night he kissed another girl, and not only that, that now he isn’t sure where he wants to be, in Israel or here with me. I told him I still wanna see him, that I think I have the right to at least say goodbye in a normal way, so he drove over here. I tried not talking about it and just making our time the best ever, but at some point I just couldn’t any more. We talked and he finally told me that he wants to move back to Israel, that he just hates the US too much.. I really thought that he might decide to stay here with me, but all he does is just say that he is sorry and that he has to think with himself. I love him so much. I know we belong together but I simply don’t know what to do… I know I should give him some time to think, but in the meanwhile I am going crazy here. I gave him a T-shirt of mine to wear a while ago and he gave it back to me today before he left, it even smells like him…. I’m sitting at home crying my eyes out and don’t know what to do… The thing is about him, is that I met him after my last boyfriend broke up with me, and e promised me our relationship will not blow up in my face. I feel like every person I have ever had has left me (not just the two boyfriends, my father and a few other people), and I just feel really sad. kat
