I don't know how many times I said
it here today but I guess the 8th time is a charm....hehehe As I said, I live in toronto now for the past 2 years, lived in Montreal before for 4 years.I am 25 right after my M.A. I am working and bored with life as it is right now...realized after 6 years in canada of sleeping with all nations of the world....that there is only one thing that I am looking for....israelis.... I had an israeli boyfriend last year and it was amazing,everything that I could dream off but I guess 19 years old russian israelis still think that they are str8 although they suck cock....we broke up and it was the first time that I was so in love, I really wanted to leave canada that time (last summer) but then I got this stupid job and everyone was telling me that I might as well stay and get the citizenship here....Not that I care much about another passport...I just want to be happy that's it. So now, although I have a very nice life here, with my lovely roomate and our amazing dinner parties and fun friends and parties, I still miss some israeli love. I honestly think that it would be great living here if I had an israeli BF but then my friend told me that it would be great living anywhere with love....so what can I say...she is right... Right now I am sort of stuck here, I am waiting for my final papers and in the mean while working to pay off my student loans....life is very static, I am trying to meet new israelis (that won't end up breaking my heart) I had a great group of israeli friends but I decided that for my heart it will be better to dissconnect any friendship with them since my ex is also in that group. So now I am only with my gay non jewish friends and I miss the israelis.... And despite that I am still optimistic....I am going to that idan reichel concert, I know that I am going to see those ex friends of mine and I know that they will want to be friends again but I am stuburn if someone hurt me. so I will just hang out with that girl that I am going with, hoping that new israelis will arrive in my life.... All I can say is that I miss my life in Montreal....
ובעניין הרצון שלך לעבור לישראל. אני לא רוצה להישמע קיצוני או משהו. אבל יקירי לא הייתה מזמן בישראל (הכוונה לחיות) ואני לא יודע עד כמה החלום הישראלי שיושב לך בראש הוא אותו הדבר. במיוחד ב 4 שנים האחרונות ישראל עברה שינוי קיצוני לטעמי והסביבה היא שונה לחלוטין. ואם אתה רוצה מישהו בן תרבותך להתקרב אליו, לא חסרים פה אנשים תאמין לי, ישראלים לשעבר, ערבים וכו שיכולים להבין אותך.
