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OK my hebrew seems to have stop working.. Sorry for the english I am realliy not in the mood to start a battle with this stupid machine.
I read here on and off for the last 5 years or so... I want to ask you girls a question..
even one response will be satisfying..
( beware! there are some seriouse and embarsing spelling mistaks
)
I have wondered thrugh this past 4 days in a complete EatingDisorder counssiousnes. meaning, my thoughts and all my mental and phisycall awarness were all tuned downd to this one particular presens- FOOD
well.. as usuall it started up as a slip of over eating and it has draged all the way to an endless shame, bad and negative thinking and a serious oversleeping due to my "loving" sleeping pills.
Then it accured to me that I am co-living with two diffrent states of mind.
My "normal' counssiousnes
and my "its not realy me, givr me a break for a few days" one
In some ways they are like parallel exsistens... no one interfirs with the other.
But then the question is- how much time is "eaten" and being wasted away in the sick state of mind? where have I been this last 4 days?
?
Can you try and think how much of your timr is in the good thinking zone and how much time isnt? can you even make that separation? or it is all a one big mush sticking and spinning together?
Thank you if you have survived all the way thrugh this aggonizing, illitirall english.
I will realy apprisiate any answer in that matter/.
OK my hebrew seems to have stop working.. Sorry for the english I am realliy not in the mood to start a battle with this stupid machine.
I read here on and off for the last 5 years or so... I want to ask you girls a question..
even one response will be satisfying..
( beware! there are some seriouse and embarsing spelling mistaks
)I have wondered thrugh this past 4 days in a complete EatingDisorder counssiousnes. meaning, my thoughts and all my mental and phisycall awarness were all tuned downd to this one particular presens- FOOD
well.. as usuall it started up as a slip of over eating and it has draged all the way to an endless shame, bad and negative thinking and a serious oversleeping due to my "loving" sleeping pills.
Then it accured to me that I am co-living with two diffrent states of mind.
My "normal' counssiousnes
and my "its not realy me, givr me a break for a few days" one
In some ways they are like parallel exsistens... no one interfirs with the other.
But then the question is- how much time is "eaten" and being wasted away in the sick state of mind? where have I been this last 4 days?
?
Can you try and think how much of your timr is in the good thinking zone and how much time isnt? can you even make that separation? or it is all a one big mush sticking and spinning together?
Thank you if you have survived all the way thrugh this aggonizing, illitirall english.
I will realy apprisiate any answer in that matter/.