its been a year....
It's been a year. exectly today, since i've lived in this place, hell hole, whatever, you'd like to call it. I just feel like venting, and for some reason, my bosses, 50/6- y/o ladys dont seem to b it... so if u want u can add a comment, if u don't thats fine too, it doesnt really matter. For some reason, each time that a time of an important previous even in my life comes i become terribly depressed... same thing happened on my b/d on christmas, on all my family and friends b/ds...and now a year since i've been here... so now its officialy a full period of time, that i spent in a different country, living, with no real friends, with out my mom and grandma that raised me with my dog. and it seems like... a streight line of depression, nothing exciting is happening, not interesting, no event no nothing... it all seems boring as hell... and even though israel seemed that way soemtimes too, it never lasted for a year...i always knew i had friends i can call and i can count on. herei feel that the only people i can count on are my sister or my b/f, which both don't always come through. The only exciting thing that is happening is that my mom is coming to visit, in about 3 weeks, and i'm taking a vacation from work finally- so we'll go some where and just relax. Coz with all this tension, comes stress, and i feel like i'm going to fall a part soon, its so funny to say, specially in this forum- i feel like no one understands me at times, although i myself understand its not true... I talked to a friend of my from israel, and he told me that if u think u dont want to be there anymore, u know u have a choice... and maybe you should reconsider your decision. and i know he's right and i know i have the choice between going and staying, it's just thati want the best of both worlds, i want a good education, and i want to be able to visit home, like once, twice a year... but so far, i have no chence for that to happen. I think that my biggesr fear is to loose contact with my friends... although, i do try to keep in touch, e-mails. letters, phone calls... anything that i would know whats going on in their lives.. and for them to remember me! ANYWAYS, thats all i have to say right now, so maybe if i'll have anymore i'll add it later on. Love, Liza p.s. a new quote i picked up and i decided its actually true, from experince: "Behind every Bitch, there's an asshole that made her one" laters...
It's been a year. exectly today, since i've lived in this place, hell hole, whatever, you'd like to call it. I just feel like venting, and for some reason, my bosses, 50/6- y/o ladys dont seem to b it... so if u want u can add a comment, if u don't thats fine too, it doesnt really matter. For some reason, each time that a time of an important previous even in my life comes i become terribly depressed... same thing happened on my b/d on christmas, on all my family and friends b/ds...and now a year since i've been here... so now its officialy a full period of time, that i spent in a different country, living, with no real friends, with out my mom and grandma that raised me with my dog. and it seems like... a streight line of depression, nothing exciting is happening, not interesting, no event no nothing... it all seems boring as hell... and even though israel seemed that way soemtimes too, it never lasted for a year...i always knew i had friends i can call and i can count on. herei feel that the only people i can count on are my sister or my b/f, which both don't always come through. The only exciting thing that is happening is that my mom is coming to visit, in about 3 weeks, and i'm taking a vacation from work finally- so we'll go some where and just relax. Coz with all this tension, comes stress, and i feel like i'm going to fall a part soon, its so funny to say, specially in this forum- i feel like no one understands me at times, although i myself understand its not true... I talked to a friend of my from israel, and he told me that if u think u dont want to be there anymore, u know u have a choice... and maybe you should reconsider your decision. and i know he's right and i know i have the choice between going and staying, it's just thati want the best of both worlds, i want a good education, and i want to be able to visit home, like once, twice a year... but so far, i have no chence for that to happen. I think that my biggesr fear is to loose contact with my friends... although, i do try to keep in touch, e-mails. letters, phone calls... anything that i would know whats going on in their lives.. and for them to remember me! ANYWAYS, thats all i have to say right now, so maybe if i'll have anymore i'll add it later on. Love, Liza p.s. a new quote i picked up and i decided its actually true, from experince: "Behind every Bitch, there's an asshole that made her one" laters...