Finally a place to say it
Hello All I have something that really sits on my heart and soul for a few years now. up untill now i never told that to anyone. im 23 years old and im gay. it all started when i was 17 and my best friend invited me to his house, and there we almost had sex. the thing is , that hes not forced me or anything. i was always curious about being with men, and he just gave me that push. when i was in high school i had alot of girlfriends, yet nothinh i can call realtionship or even sex. im a virgin with women, not just by sex, but in realtionship as well. I had a few boyfriends in the past , yet i always had this attraction to try it with a women. i dont know why im afarid. maybe because of the sex thing? that i wont know what to do. i dont have that fear with men, only with women. I have alot of women friends, and im a good looking guy, and i know that all i have to do is to try with them. yet im abit afraif of all those things. i feel like im 14 years old when it comes to women. i get confused, dont know what to say or do. its just something that i wanna do. im not sure that im 100% gay, but i know that im not 100% straught as well, and beside i hate those definiation. in the past i tried to date a girl, and since i do belive in honesty i told her about my gay history and past... of course that she got scared and left. most of my friends told me that i shouldnt tell that part of my life to a women, not untill i trust her. the problem is that i hate lying, and i hate hiding things from people. ive been doing this all my life and i wanna stop it. anyway, i know there is nothing you can do, but it was good to say it out loud
Hello All I have something that really sits on my heart and soul for a few years now. up untill now i never told that to anyone. im 23 years old and im gay. it all started when i was 17 and my best friend invited me to his house, and there we almost had sex. the thing is , that hes not forced me or anything. i was always curious about being with men, and he just gave me that push. when i was in high school i had alot of girlfriends, yet nothinh i can call realtionship or even sex. im a virgin with women, not just by sex, but in realtionship as well. I had a few boyfriends in the past , yet i always had this attraction to try it with a women. i dont know why im afarid. maybe because of the sex thing? that i wont know what to do. i dont have that fear with men, only with women. I have alot of women friends, and im a good looking guy, and i know that all i have to do is to try with them. yet im abit afraif of all those things. i feel like im 14 years old when it comes to women. i get confused, dont know what to say or do. its just something that i wanna do. im not sure that im 100% gay, but i know that im not 100% straught as well, and beside i hate those definiation. in the past i tried to date a girl, and since i do belive in honesty i told her about my gay history and past... of course that she got scared and left. most of my friends told me that i shouldnt tell that part of my life to a women, not untill i trust her. the problem is that i hate lying, and i hate hiding things from people. ive been doing this all my life and i wanna stop it. anyway, i know there is nothing you can do, but it was good to say it out loud